Yeah alrite, i know wad your saying to urselves. This isn't gonna last. This is probably another one of my emo moments before i abandon my blog again. You're probably right. However, I AM doing my best to update k.
Jus been really really busy doing nothing. Tomorrow's PMR for my sister.. Grr... good luck to all the candidates! Should see the change in her studying attitude. Its heart attack worthy la okay.
Unfortunately can't say the same for me. Been thinking alot about things NOT related to SPM. Which is.. bad. Apparently NS is so going to happen for me. No chance of weaseling out already. Parents don't even want to think about letting me go for January college and potentially skipping my NS. They also very nicely deny me from getting my license until after NS. Great. SO MUCH to look forward to.

New handphone sorely needed. My speaker, microphone is busted in my phone. I have to use hands free to call and receive calls now. I dunno what's more retarded, me or my class. Not going to complain anymore.
One big thing dat I've been fussing about is the fact that my school has no prom... or farewell of any sorts for the form 5s. Its quite saddening. I've used up 2 years in that school and already I feel like we should have a farewell. What abt those that were in 5 years rite.
Need to force myself to study. Seriously.
P/s Come to hoi tong with me~~~ COME COME!!
You should see - Del's accapello version of Jason Mraz's I'm Yours on youtube
Listening to - What a Catch, Donnie by Fall Out Boy

I haven't been studying lately. Which is okay I guess. If I wasn't taking a major exam in about... less than 70 days. Or if I was a genius. Or if i had photographic memory and could suck up everything about every book with a glance. But I don't. I'm just not motivated. Shit. 

Selamat sejahtera saya ucapkan kepada pembaca2 blog saya sekalian, pada malam yang mulia ini saya akan menyampaikan sebuah ucapan yang bertajuk "Kemerdekaan sesuatu untuk dibanggakan." Okay, switch to english d. 1 Malaysia, 1 Country, 1 Nation, together we fall, together we stand up again. A lot of people will say that that previous statement has as much truth as dragons and tooth fairies. People,as we know it, love controversy, love conflict and love to look on the negative side of things. How do you think Murphy came up with Murphy's Law, which sates that everything that can go wrong, will go wrong. We are genetically hardwired to prepare for the worst, and that has enabled the human race to survive this long in this harsh world. However, when some of us take this supposedly survivor instinct and turn it into negative thinking, then the problem arises. A lot of people think that Malaysia is not united enough, with the protesting going on all over the country, be it because of a certain organizations cry for justice, or just a way of getting attention. Besides that, many people feel that some decisions have been made in preference to a certain group. OR people just feel as though they have not been treated justly, and some things could be improved upon and that the government is not paying enough attention to a certain cause. My fellow Malaysians, I am here to remind you all (lol, although u could get more qualified reminding =P) that there is always a silver lining to a cloud. If someone were to draw a black spot on a big whiteboard, everyone's attention would be focused on that ugly black spot and ignore the big whiteboard. Which is basically what is happening. Petty things, negative occurrence have distracted us from the big positive whiteboard of things that Malaysia has to offer. The food, the people (well, at least the good part of community), the songs, the culture diversity, the lifestyle are all part of the white board that we choose to ignore. We take all these things for granted because we were born into it. You know how hard is it to find a mamak store, ayamas and a chinese restaurant in the same shop row in other countries? Do you know how hard is it to switch radio channels and hear different language songs in other countries? Do you know how hard is it to find Indians, Malays, Chinese and Singhs all playing football on the same team and enjoying themselves in other countries? Do you know how hard is it for buses and trains to arrive punctually in OUR country? What my point is ladies and gentleman, is that we should put aside all our small differences, and focus on our large similarities. Stop fighting over a rubber chicken, start uniting for our beloved country. It's been 52 years to the date, and I am prone to believe we can only move forward. Stop supporting Man United, support Perak. Stop buying KFC, buy Pak Mat's Ayam Goreng. Stop buying Nike, buy NIKI. Don't buy Mercedes, Ferrari or BMW, buy Proton. You get it. Satu bangsa, Satu negara, SATU MALAYSIA. Good night and Happy mERDEKAAAAAAA!!! WOOOTSSSSS! From, Hopefully ur future PM XDDDD Jon Currently listening to : Taylor Swift's You Belong to Me Trying to play on Guitar: Beat It

So hi guys.. again.

A lot of things to cover since my last post... but can't remember any of them =/
Dunno whether I should laugh or cry now, my mom brought me to her work office today for some photoshoot. Fuuyoh. Model sia. TOLD YOU i was damn hot. Her internet has like a bar on it, so like can't go websites like youtube. CRAPPP

Its like giving candy and telling you you can't have the sweet ones. "Ah wait, only the ginseng and crap flavored sweets allowed!"

Anyway, pretty much stuck here for the rest of the day, but thank god, have the whole tomorrow for monitor camp! WEeeeee~ Socializing! (Coming from an anti sosial like myself, its like an early christmas miracle)

Watched Angels and Demons yesterday ZOMGWTFBBQWTHFFMS (FFMS is french fries milk shake) its good la weyh! Shocking cause I heard Da Vinci Code sucked. Ewan McGregor (Obi Wan Kenobi and Moulin Rouge guy) was sooooo good acting and Tom Hanks... well, he's alright. SO much better than the stick of an Edward in Twilight. Shit man, if u replace Robert Pattinson with a stick with his face on it, no one would freaking notice. And to imagine they won 5 awards in Nickelodeon awards! Its THE ONLY awards show they can win. I mean, who are the nominees for best actor? First up, SPonGEbobbbbb Squarepants, Jimmy Neutron, Timmy Turner, and Robert Pattinson? I would vote for Danny Phantom come to think of it.

Fong fei kei-ed a group of friends on sunday. Feel guilty T___T Partially because i merajuk-ed towards the end. Haiz... Been restaurant city-ing lately. Damn lifeless lorh now. Not been studying. Shit. Havn't pack for camp. Shit. Wasting my time blogging T______T Crap.

Listening to - Lost! by Coldplay
Trying to play on the guitar - Now and Forever by Richard Marx

 

So yipeededooda.
Waddya know, another reason to gain weight and gorge ourselves silly has arrived, non other than mother's Day! Woooots.
Even as I'm writing my post, my mother is nagging the crap out of me.
So, I shall say

Sorry for the times I have let you down,
Sorry for the times I have disobeyed you,
Sorry for the times I did not stand up for you,
Sorry for the times I was not the best son I could be,
Sorry for the times I was not the best person I could be,
Thank you for the times you gave me,
Thank you for the timesless advice you gave me,
Thanks for the meals on my table and the clothes that i wear( imagine, a naked me would be reaaaally bad),
Thanks for enduring nine months of heavy labour for me (i was heavy..still am),
Thanks for understanding all the crap i do,
Thanks for putting me back on the right track (via your 'various' methods)
Thanks for putting cash in my wallet every week (allowance not bribery f.y.i)
Thanks for teaching me about my faith and making the right decisions
Thanks for allowing me to buy my very expensive electric guitar,
Thanks for allowing me to go to various camps over the years,
Thanks for taking care of me when I was sick (thru the vommiting,fever and diarrhea)
Thanks for making me exist !


In times of great annoyance and anger, we tend to turn to our mother for hope,love and advice. And they never shy away from giving us just what we need.

Thank you mum, even through your persistent nagging and scoldings, I know (i Hope.. just kidding) that you still love me inside =)

Because I will always love you!

Happy Mother's Day!!!!!

Exams here. Shit

Lol. 1st time in my life I'm proud of SMK Seri Kembangan. We successfully beat the swine(pig) flu for front page news. The news front page main title : SMK Seri Kembangan, Fighting, Gambling and Skipping School.

Serious lol crap lor. Some1 got pictures of students gambling, and got a video of them fighting, then pictures of them skipping school. All done by different people. Damn, how did they miss the toilet smoking scandal? Or even the drug use? Aww man, those la got real news to write about.

So, this is my formal congratulations to my dearly beloved school. I mean, all the crap I gave the school was thoroughly undeserved. I mean with the school's reputation and what it is. I'm surprised people aren't just bursting to get in the school gates. Oh wait, that's going to be taken care of by angry parents and reporters come tomorrow morning. Ah well, hopefully they can get a close up of me.

Hmm... Maybe I should like make up to make myself look beaten up to get attention from the reporters, or even better, REALLY get beaten up.

Free advert for my school: If you need to find gangster, smoke, beat up someone, get beaten up, skip class, skip school or anything illegal, come on over to my school. The one stop for all. (Cards and ciggarettes all sold seperately)

 So, I missed 5 days of school last week. Including Saturday's supposedly wajib day to come for replacement. No, I wasn't sick or involved in a horrific car crash, or abducted by aliens and subjected to open probing, nor was i hibernating suddenly because of global warming. I was in Johor Bahru.

 For smart people, you can already guess what I was doing there, based on my title and other lame excuses of WHY i skipped school. I was at my grandfather's funeral. Well, I got the news as soon as I got back form school on Monday, and shock vibrated through my whole body. I was genuinely stunned for a moment. My grandfather? The man who beat me in chinese chess even though he had blur eye-sight, was colour blind and had Parkinsons had passed away? My brain simply couldn't or wouldn't process that information.

  So, staright away after that, I was whisked away to Johor and faced my grandfather. He passed away at 8.30 that morning, so... when I reached there at 7pm and the coffin arrived, he was already enbalmed and in his best suit. It was so.. surreal. Needless to say, my mom and her borthers and sisters could not resist the flow of tears.

  For four days we kept him in a room in a church, where people could come and say their last goodbyes, and leave flowers and comfort my grandmother. On the day of the funeral itslef, my grandmother could not stop crying, it was heart-wrenching. The mood was so grim that day, the air filled with sobs.

  After this experience, I realize I've been totally shallow. Life can end at anytime, especially when you're not expecting it. I realize the importance of making the best of what you got.

  Gong gong, I miss you dearly. May your soul rest in peace forever. Amen.

So, haven't been blogging in a while. Laziness more than anything. SPM is just around the seemingly long corner, and yet all I can bring myself to do is play the guitar =/

I know my Sejarah Form 4 is weak, I know my Physics and Add math are not up to standard. The only sure A i got now is English. Even that I'm starting to doubt.

I don't know how I got to where I am now. Just by extraordinary circumstances I guess. My dad decided to move somewhere near his workplace at Putrajaya,so we moved here to Seri Kembangan, and then he enrolled us into the nearest school SMK seri kembangan. And Bam. Here I am a year after that.

Almost all things I have done in life, I don't regret. However, I'm starting to feel a huge regret to have left my subang life and come here. I know, you've heard me moan countless of times on how crappy the school is, and defending it occasionnally. But i tell you know, if it were up to me, I would have never stepped into that school. Even its great canteen with its various types of food can't save it from the truth.

That's all I'm going to remember about this school. The great canteen. Probably some of the teachers and some friends. Not. Budi bahasa campaign is going on. That's all balls I say. The toilet is like a freaking chimney. Everytime I step in there, there's either a student smoking or smoke smell. Some teachers don't even look at you when you wish them. Not even a grunt of acknowlegement.

My classmates have the total unity of a group of apes forced to live together by their evil captives. Actually scratch that, my class has less untiy than that. The person sitting three spaces away from another can be totally oblivious to each other. After the 2nd year being together, some still don't know each others name.

Many even insult at every chance they get, its just so negative. I'm not saying I'm a saint, the only one there that's pure and holy, there to show the light. Au contraire, I probably started this negativity for all I know. I don't know la, I'm just so dissapointed right now. Just... no will to succeed.

People can nag me and tell me to think for myself, to go on a lone battle. But its definitely easier said than done. All the negativity is getting to me. Not having an Add math teacher for 3 weeks.

The worst is, my friends... are not really my friends here. I guess I can't expect myself to storm in and be greeted like a king or anything, for I've only been here 2 years and they have known each other (some of them) since primary school. I dunno, it just feels like I don't really have a real relationship, someone I can confide in here. Its always insults and arguments and clever wit. Well, I'm tired of all this crap.

So, that was me emo-ing after a long time of keeping it inside me. Later.

Signing off,
emo-monitor of a crappy class who couldn't care less. 

In life, there are good times and bad times. it is a long journey that we all must take, that we all must go through. Through the thick and thin, we always stumble upon the 'lifelines' of other people, getting to know them. If you click with them, you become supposedly friends, if you don't however, you become sworn enemies. Almost everyone in this world has a friend, and only a few selected by God have Best Friends. Best friends are a blessing in disguise, you can tell them anything and discuss anything, from other people to yourselves, and always be true to yourself around them. I'm proud to say that Bryan Lim, is definitely one of my best friends. Humans, as we are made are not perfect, we all have our defects and flaws, but Bryan I think, has made me a better person today just because he crossed my pathway. Bryan is not perfect, neither am I. We started knowing each other in our secondary years, though we first met when we were still in primary school. We just clicked that day in school in USJ 12 classroom, and from then on, I guess we were friends. Many who know him, thinks highly of him, although none would be too eager to admit it.

Thank you so much, for being my best friend. Happy belated birthday dude.


P.S Happy April Fools